back to school

In being home for the last week or so I have realized that I really do dread going to school at Mitchell. I like going to class there, I get along well with my professors. I like my dorm, I get along with most of my roommates. I think one of the only people that keeps me sain at that school is Ashley. We have alot in common. We are both really stubborn, dont listen to what other people say for the most part, would rather deal with other peoples problems then our own and we generally get eachother. Plus we get along well, we are both rather crazy when it comes to doing things together, like going to Wal-mart...always an adventure. We have both agreed that we are the only ones allowed to pick on Rebecca because she knows we are joking around and we know when to stop however if someone else were to ever make fun of her or lay a finger on her they would get there ass beat by 2 girls. We are basically the same person. My other roommates on the other hand I dont particullary care for. I love Rebecca most of the time and Jenn is new to the room so they are excluded from this. However Grace and Aimee I am not huge fans of. Grace I can handle certian doses of. But she usually keeps to herself so I dont mind her, its just that she doesnt clean up after herself and she doesnt do anything to help out in the room. She never buys paper towles or toilet paper or paper plates, she does nothing and she expects the rest of us to do it for her. Plus she always has Andrew in the room. Which drives all of us up the wall most days. He takes forever in the bathroom, he makes it awkward when ever any of us are around him and he is just generally awkward. But hopefully things will change this semester and he wont be in the room all of the time. Aimee on the other hand is a whole boat load of issuses. I know that I agreed to be her roomate but I am now regretting it. She drives me up a wall when she is in the room. She is always in a bad mood, throwing things around the room and when Nik is in the room he just makes fun of everyone. I dont understand what she see's in him. He's a tool, an ass hole, and has no real friends that actually want to hangout with him. The people that do hangout with him only hangout with him because if they dont they know he will never let them forget it and he tortures you until you take the time out to actually hangout with him, and no one ever really has a good time because they always have something else they could be doing or hanging out with someone that they actually care about. But Aimee like Grace does nothing for the room. She never buys anything for the room. The applicance that she brought for the room she hid in our room so no one could use it which is rediculous. Why even bring it? All I know is that she and Nik are not staying in the room all of the time because I cant handle that. She was never there 1st semester and now all of the sudden she wants to come back and takes over the whole room, Not Fair. But like I said before things need to change for next semester. We are going to make lists of things we need and when they run out someone else is buying it for the whole room. Seeing as how everyone in the room has a boy friend except for me we are making a rule that they can only stay in the room for 3 nights and if I ever get another boy friend he will abide by the same rules. And we also need to make rules for cleaning because the kitchen and bathroom are always a mess and its gross. Hopefully these changes wont make any of us fight however thats where I see all of this going and when it happens im not staying in the room.
Anyway, at school I like my friends I have alot actually and that is one of the comforting things to go back to. To see all of the people who care about me or at least I think they care about me. But the people I dont want to see are the ones who I am constantly hurt by. Im tired of always being there for them and getting shit in return. Thats why this semester I have decided to completely erase those people from my life, or try to anyway. After talking to a friend the other night I realised what I need to do and Im going to go for what I want..well who I want. And Im hoping that I will be able to get to know him better and that in the end he will end up liking me for me and not what people want me to be.